Peaks and valleys

I am much more stable when I'm single.

A couple days ago, I was floating, realising I'd finally found a guy who was serious about getting serious.

Today, not so much.

T got a random day off work; due to a slowdown, there was nothing to do. We found out at 0730.

At 0815, I had already petitioned my boss for a half-day off.

At 0930, I was on the phone with T, hearing that he had finished the dishes, and was moving on to the vaccuuming.

At 1000, the boss agreed to the half-day.

At 1030, T and I were back on the phone, planning an evening together.

At 1130, I discovered an important meeting would be happening at 1300, and I couldn't miss it.

At 1430, I finally got out of the office, full of anticipation.

At 1445, we were both sitting on opposite ends of the couch, playing on our computers, at his request for some 'down time'.

At 1700 hours, I ran to the grocery store.

At 1930, I got up and put in a load of laundry. As I sat back down, I asked T if he would like to do something. He declined.

At 2030, T snuck off to bed.

I am sitting here in my livingroom, wondering why I wasted the holiday time to take part of a day off work. I was really eager to come home, but when I got here, he seemed utterly disinterested. I started out being fairly okay with that; he'd busted his butt cleaning house, and I could understand wanting to sit and relax for a bit. Once it started to drag on into hours of quality time with the computers, I started to get a bit pissy. I just don't get it: why plan an evening with me, convince me to take time off work, then ignore me when I get home? Now that he's gone to bed without even saying goodnight, I am seriously considering pulling out the fold-out couch...why sleep next to someone you'd rather kick?

I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow, but I sure hate being ignored.

...And he's going to be moving in at the end of the month?!?

Bored...

...Or, "Why I Should Never Be Allowed To Get Bored"...


This cold is lingering on and on. My dog is going crazy because she hasn't had a walk in weeks. Going outside aggravates the cough to the point that I have to stop every few paces and lean on something while I hack up a lung. Not fun.

I am not normally quite as lazy as I have been lately. I have to admit, I am totally sick of lounging around the house surfing dating websites and blogs, although I did set up a date with a brand new victim for Thursday.

Anyhow, I was laying in bed a couple of nights ago, coughing, and had a brilliant idea for a website. No, I'm not telling...but when Google buys me out for 7 billion dollars, I'll buy the beer.

I called Mr UK and another friend who works in IT to see what they thought of the idea. They said it was great, so I asked them if they could help me set it up. They got a LOT less enthusiastic at that point. After each of them had spent a couple of hours explaining the costs and effort involved, I got a lot less enthusiastic, too.

However, being the stubborn broad I am, I asked what it would take for me to be able to do it myself. They started throwing out random strings of letters, like "html", "psp", "css", and basically the rest of the alphabet in creative combinations.

I have to admit, the last time I felt like I knew anything about computers was when I used to program cute little cards/messages for Mom#2 on our Commodore 64. I was nine.

So, this week's project is learning html. I am not very good at learning out of books, and need to actually do things and make mistakes in order to understand. So, I suspect that this blog will be undergoing some renovations in the near future...

Wish me luck...